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creepin down...its a kinda lifelike illusion. back home i cant wait for that..
miss ya! mom,dad,grandma,aunt...miss ya all! valentine's day right now is the moring of this special day,perhaps,it just be special for others couples.im seating in front of the PC table and continuing my another fucking boring day(it will be..).
valentine's day im single,like many past years.so it never meand much to me.someone received a big bundle of blue roses from her latest “adorer”.that's adorable.prefigured a new begining of relationship?who knows...
the year end bonus comes up finally.its less than my initial expectation,but better than none. company reuion lunch this noon,all staff of company,hotpot.
it was so nice seein such a sight that i can have the big banquet with these guys.and more,its became the sign of the real festival.happy time together,thats enough.
internet edit department members r all here on the same table,it somehow seemed different from any other ones tho we had many lunch time together before,definitely.so everyone showed much plesure on its face,and gave greetings at the same time.it reminds me a song "happy together" lol tho perhaps it was not capable for this scene by its original meaning.
spring festival never comes real untill now... festival and notebook pc everything goes so fast.so it seems no surprise when another spring festival comes,except for one thing--go home.cuz in those special days of many past years i always kept staying home with family and had da enjoyable time.this year,maybe will go as normal but before that i should take my time and hurry home.by the schedule,the holiday might begin at 17th,thus i have to take a one day leave so that i can catch up with the family-reunion-time.
last night i called back home and asked my mother whether i could have a new notebook pc.i mean i wanna know if they can get another one for me.honestly i know that its quite weird about such a thing cuz there seems no more excuse or something to require my parents do that.im separate now.have work,independent life...everything recently around shows that.but in another view,i think my payment for now cant sustain the big burden i mean such a stuff that would cost me many thousand yuan.so i suggested mom to borrow enough money to me and promised to refund in one year. love is hard and blinded im quite touched by the internet-novel <the boy in my room>.not only for its vivid charactors but also for the story itself.i'v been missing the feeling for really a long time... lit time for break but... thats it,the weekend im longing for..finally comes!through the hard working days i merely rememered ctrl v and ctrl c at all.cuz thats the highest frequency i have to do on the keyboad,the database-copy.
but unfortunately i told my uncle as a promise that i would help him getting the chinese traditional medicine back from a doc not so far away(my uncle was diagnosed as lung cancer months ago and he knew the radiation-cure did nothing as a help except endless pains,so he asked for a new way in tradition cure)..but i still have to get up aound 6am (cuz the later u got there,the later u'll be back)and take a coach to an-ren,the place where the mysterious doc' clinic is.after my getting there i was shocked..so many patients around there and messed up..then i know all i have to do is just wait.3hrs waitin time is fuckin long for everyone there i think.and wuts worse,i dun even get an idea how to dispatch it.so i took out my walkman and wanna enjoy my music time...time flew so slowly and i think my 3times nap and 3times closet can be an attesting.till 2pm i just finished my assignment and took my exhausted boby home.on the bus,i got a call from company that i got a permit not to go work tomorrow.im gratified...cheers. long time apart.. the space,it has been idling away for a long time.so many changes there in my life through the past months..but when u really wanna think back,nothin can reminded...
my company turns to be on a high cooperation with 163.com after the new year days.all departments r preparing for that as a terrible battle being settled on already.and last week i kept stayin in my seat and working from 9am to 8pm and no weekend left.i think i'll be there for a 2-constant-weeks working..yea.it made me really tired but somehow worthy.the CEO told us,as a promise,that we'll get an extra bonus for this special period.so it seems great if the leader kept it real...
feb.is comin,spring festival continues later,big holidays n' family-reunion is on schedule for everyone..i get no idea if i can come back home on time.god bless me..for more surprizes.
good nite.
n' welcome the fight 2moro.. smack that... ... joke baby earthworm feels lonely,so he cuts himself into two,and plays shuttlecock.mother earthworm thinks its a wonderful idea,so she cuts herself into four,and plays mah-jong.one day she finds that the father earthworm cuts himself into meat sauce. mother earthworm cries:how can u be so stupid?! u'll die! father earthworm says:i just wanna play football..... a story "abnegate myself,then i can be saved from all the guilty.."
he,named as xingxing, was my good friend once in college.but unfortunatly the unabiding friendship came to an end due to some meaningless misunderstandings.and when we wanna retrieve it,it was too late..we nearly didnt keep any contact during the rest 3yrs.and for now,still..
i dun know why i recently wanna leave sth here ab him.maybe just a story..that pops up in my mind,and then,be written down as a kinda commemorate.
he was gifted in most part of study fields.and it helps him gaining every semesters' scholarship even without hardships. and as another popular character,he is bloody humorous..we often hooked up day after day..girls and boys,jokes and laughters. such brilliant days it was...
ppl always say, every happiness will come like a flash in the pan without ur tight hold,and the rest r sadness..for me,at least,it is true..maye it was not so obvious that we could put up any depression on our face,or,the days cant go on with out him and his humor but..life really showed up a lit bit colourless from then on.
to be continued......
rain it's raining day after day here..everythin goes wet including me heart.
i dun know how much the weather could effect me and makes my heart so hollow.a friend asked me a personal ques if i was a G.i said yes.cuz through quite a long time i was wondering ab that,and i thought i was just a BI at least.but the fact is,i lied.i dun know how to face it and even myself when everyone aside got the same stupid questions..once again i have to mentioned ab this ugly topic.sigh..
besides,today is thx giving day.thx all ppl around for the greetings and cares.thx. touchquiet heart
there was a time when i was lost in myself
you took my hand became my guide there was a time you needed my help i guess my ego made me blind it's not the rain it's not the streetlights that makes your skin so pale at night it's your quiet heart
and your silence as your teardrops stain my sheets let's take a trip through the wires your dream is gone you are free stay free ... i'v got a crush on this song for more than 2yrs since i knew the swedish band KENT.it's a sad song sang for lovers struggling in the hard relationships and their bittersweet memories before the love comes to an end.it's a story filled with pathos.love it not just cuz of the tune nor the vivid lyrics.for more,its ab the touch.the touch from deep inside.i know it can always bring me these feelings and manipulate much. second glance i never believe in such a chinese idiom "yi jian zhong qing".it explains a special scene that can happened merely in tales as i thought..but interestedly i always hold another opinion that i may fall in love with someone at the second sight lol..
it sounds funny but true.basically if someone can attracts me at the first sight,it may just be considered as kinda addiction or glamoring from its personality but cant go further as love.on the opposition,it can be different if the sense of feeling keeps up to the second or later touch,the profundity will be turnin into extension or wutever..so as i said i would rather accept "the second glance" than that so called "yi jian zhong qing".and as a matter of fact i did get such an amazin thing few days ago...lol.not kidding. time flows so fast that its been almost 4 months since my graduation.
i have to think about it while marvel at the fast running of time,wut the hell have i got during such a long time..from the troubles and mess of work to recently ordinary working days,from the worries of lacking money to having a big banquet with friends...abundant things is incessantly taking up my life.i should own it independently and hopefully.its not only kinda responsibility but belief.live my life with wut i creat.that can be better.
im not a lucky one in seeking jobs but not too bad yet.life gives me hopes but sometimes wants me to wait..chances r slipping but not already disappeared.i know,thats all i deserved.
PS.my HBV test r all negative including the antibody.so soon i ought to take the inoculation as a protection.plus,my left cheek teeth has been terribly decayed,i found it half yrs ago but didnt take any focus on so seems it begins hiting back and wanna make much ache and incommodity to me... body checkup just lit moment ago i got a notice that i would have a body checkup in hospital tomorrow morning.and the main contains the hepatitis B only.in a word,if there were no antibody of hepatitis B or the doc's answer was "positive",i have to kick my ass out..and the charge should go for myself...well it's not a big deal about the money but..if the test report turned bad,wut can i do then?gosh..hope everythin goes well .. untitled 1.bro has taken a trip to miyaluo for 2ds.as he said it was totally a memorable trip..beautiful landscape coloured with variety of things..friendly ppl immersed in special racal characters..that's miyaluo.an unattached place not far away.
2.this afternoon when i just left my company on the way home,i found a foreigner in KFC teaching lots of lit kids there..it was so funny when i saw that cuz i'v ever seen this before.he seemed so serious,and from his mouth i know he continued his communication(maybe a kind games) with these lit ones in chinese.awesome!
3.phillina,she chilled down with her BF.and she told me he went away from where he came today..without anything left..she was in terrible sorrow but can do nothin about it..maybe i cant feel wut she felt,all i can do is just to pull her out and make her feel better..the hurt cant get cure so quick i know..just hope she can make it through the hard time.
4.i bought some new clothes for myself.a pair of shoes and trousers.lol.
5.my company's website should be change to a brand new one.a refreshed layout can makes everyone happy.but seems there should be large quantity of stuff being done before that....gosh.
6.a mate asked me why i didnt find a partner(she meaned a GF).it's really a question for me sooner or later..some reasons but cant be opened out to everyone..i remembered one day my mom got the same stupid ques to me.that's wut i completely worried about especially for the age around 24yrs old..marriage,how horrible the word is.. all for brotherhood.. oh gosh..wut can i say..my head blows up completely...
like other american pop teleplays,prison break has its independent masterstroke and vivid portrait for every roles.and of course the configuration and the story route can be the sheen for itself.
the whole story begins with scofield,for helping his death penalty bro lincoln out of the jail,he robed a band by gun and been put in fox river prison where his elder bro is.but as a building engineer,scofield know all the construction of the prison quite well..so he begain a big plan of taking his bro out of there....
i'v spent all the spare time of lately 3dys on PB including season 2.but wut a pity it didnt show up all completely.so i just stoped at vol.10 season.2...cant wait for the later ones.. memory in autumn.light rain,
comes down in silence.
with glistening drops
touching on my cold face.
enjoyable,
i take a deep breath.
wanna hold all these magic feelings.
u can see,
golden autumn flows with breeze.
leaves us somethin holding tightly in hands.
nobody knows wut it is..
like a wizened leaf,
never returns..
autumn comes..
a slim season adapt to memorize.
......
PIZZA HUT n' HAOLEDI yes,that's my weekend! havent been hanging out and feeling so high with friends since eddie's gone.. it's basically more than half a month in counting..
due to some special reasons i cant let mo having fun with us. and he, as a matter of fact, did have his own plans ab the evening time! so i think that's a good way to make each of us comfortable lol...
well.. pizza hut, for its popular effect, we decided to go there. and then, everthin went harmonious involving chitchating and some fun.. old friends always have the direct intimate ways in igniting the circumstance.. hehe, that's true! and one more thing.. definitely, during enjoying this "banquet".. i dun think pizza hut has the obvious ascendency comparing with grandma's kitchen, including its flavor, taste, price etc.
continuing, haoledi! went there, as for me, i dun think it's a good idea. im a kinda guy somewut lacking tones or rhythms, tho i love songs and singing stuff crazily.. but i surrendered quickly ab other plans when i catched their cheering on haoledi suggestion.. naturally u know, i couldnt be the super mic-overlord in the night show..yeah being an audience, it was enough!
...around 2:00 in the morning, i got back home.. extremely tired.
ps:mo told me he had a barbeque with some others that night. but the taxi fare went more than its barbeques.. that's weird... OST recommendations have u once paid any attention on the OST?i have a crush on them and sometimes feel that, from another point of view,they r more fabulous and wonderful than any other sound tracks..im not kidding,cuz behind each OST, u can find some touching stories or scenes easily.visions and imaginations been completely commixed together!so here,i wanna recommend some films and the relevant OSTs.enjoy it...
"if you believe in love at first sight, you never stop looking!"
it's a tagline of the film and ya know..its an intriguing story of passion, drama, love, and abandonment involving two couples, which only gets more complicated when the man from the first couple gets acquainted with the woman from the second coupling. i dun know if u ever watched it, but no doubt that its a treat.
OST:<the blower's daughter> from damien rice.an irish singer.this song, as the first single, been taken from the, as yet unfinished, album,was released in sep. 2001 in ireland and went top 20 soon..
film:<hard candy>
plot outline:for three weeks, 14-year-old hayley stark has been chatting online with "lensmaster319", a 32-year-old fashion photographer, named jeff. the two agree to meet at a coffee shop called nighthawks. they hit it off, despite the massive age difference. hayley appears to flirt with jeff, and jeff generally restrains himself, even admitting that he must wait 4-years until he can be with her. but his reservations are apparently not enough to decline when hayley all but invites herself over to his house. once at the house, manipulation becomes the name of the game, and the pedophile seems to be on the non-traditional side of it...
OST:<elephant woman> from blonde redhead.
film:<ma mère>
pierre, a youth, comes from his grandmother's in france to stay with his parents in the canary islands. his father talks oddly about his lost youth and leaves abruptly for france. mom promises to take pierre to a nightclub, remarking that people will think he's her lover. he prays. his father dies in france, and his mother wants him to empty his father's office; pierre finds it full of pornography. his mother takes him in tow into a night world without morality, a world of sexual exploitation, exhibitionism, and wildness. what will pierre make of this, and what, ultimately, will he make of his mother?...
OST:<happy together> from the turtles.
film:<shooting livien>
a dark psychological drama, shooting livien explores the inner psyche of john livien, a disillusioned new york musician who deals with a childhood trauma by claiming an alter ego. his band on the brink of success, fantasy becomes dangerously blurred with reality as livien struggles with his identity crisis. at the peak of his insanity livien decides to take his dementia to the furthest reaches...
OST:<give it all> from fionn o'lochlainn.
omg..i'v spent 3hrs on this info collection and writting..just hope u guys can try it and enjoy..
no wut if.. not been here for 4 days and dont know wut can be left here..my life goes sooo normal that i cant get any inspirations anymore.."it grabs all from me..no passion,no ambition,no further goals..im nearly on the edge of broken.."yeah i always say it to others like some stupid jokes..seems it borns to be like that.. ok.firstly wanna say sth ab mo and eddie,cuz that couple have incandesced their luv so hard,and even extended..i dun know whether it is true that ppl said time can erase everythin or wutever.. but by now,as an exception,they r still right there for each other..u may say it's too short for their love to judge from, and the whole evolution is not as typical as some nomal luv..or they even dun reach the climax of love..so no one can imagine wut it would be like after 2months,3 months,or more..yes,maybe..but as u said it's not a typical one,their love should have an atypical going.. at least i think so.no cycle,no hobbling,no ending..just forever. Oscar wilderIn 1891, Wilde met and quite soon became intimate with the considerably younger, handsome, and dissolute Lord Alfred Douglas (nicknamed "Bosie"). Soon the marquess of Queensberry, Douglas's father, began railing against Wilde and later wrote him a note accusing him of homosexual practices. Foolishly, Wilde brought action for libel against the marquess and was himself charged with homosexual offenses under the Criminal Law Amendment, found guilty, and sentenced (1895) to prison for two years. His experiences in jail inspired his most famous poem, The Ballad of Reading Gaol (1898), and the apology published by his literary executor as De Profundis (1905). Released from prison in 1897, Wilde found himself a complete social outcast in England and, plagued by ill health and bankruptcy, lived in France under an assumed name until his death. happy birthday! right now im in phillina's dorm and share the big happy time with some friends,cuz it is phillina's b-day.somethin comes special due to the cheering of everyone lol..all ppl here r busy with the cooking stuff for the dinner except me.im dodging in her bedroom and sufing on net..basically i get the point that it will be thrown into mess if i did any help for em' haha!ok let it go..
oh my CD player's earplug was terribly broken..any one wanna gimme some suggestions about the new one?-_-! im exhausted.. as the company's original oral agreement said,yesterday should be my promoting day.but somehow i dun see any signs or documents or even a verbal msg from someone else..everybody's just doing their own works quietly as usual..i asked the manager whether i should send some application materials as a formality..and wut i'v got was just "dun worry,ur everythin is in process.." damn! i dun know wut the fuck process they r doing for me..2 months has past, i'v been here,the shit company, for more than 60ds without any salary...how can u bitch say it so easy to me and treat me like an idiot?im really a lit angry and disapointed on it! like i'v totally been cheaten..and think obviously that wut they want is not me but just some labors for free..
i dun know,im exhausted,if the situation goes no change,i'll quit! should quit!
PS:tomorrow is phillina's B-day,she invited me to her house for dinner,i dun know wut shall i take for her as a gift..well it seems like a trifle tho..wutever, she will enjoy i think.. for u,hold on... they have a cruch on each other.
they r falling in love.
they betray everythin from tradition.
they get the real love.
but.. seriously, there comes a problem, no matter how strong their love comes, how much their missing blows, there's only 2 ways for their communication, phone and internet.. flintily, distance tears them apart.. they only can be touched by some sweet words, from the deep inside, from the heart in a city far away. god plays a terrible joke to em', so sarcastic.. then everyday, after the workin time, they come in front of the PC,facing to the screen and talking softly..till late at night,till all stars' shining bright,till they can feel each others heart nearby...then say good night.
they r immersing deeply in such a mixture..
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